Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Cause He Gave me ... you




It was such a hazy dream
Dream that you made come true
An inseparable love
Is what I got from you
And its different, so different
But I never knew
Now that I have you
I'm not gonna let you go..

Its the way
When u tickle my nose
And tell me u love me so
Its the way
When u open my eyes
To all the love before me
I just wanna know
How Good could God be to me
Cause He gave me you...

When I'd cry you'd be
Holding close to me
Holding me tight forevermore
Through all the sands and seas..
When I'd strech my hands
True joy on my face
You light up my eyes
Our love would grant me grace..

Its the way
When u tickle my nose
And tell me u love me so
Its the way
When u open my eyes
To all the love before me
I just wanna know
How Good could God be to me
Cause He gave me you...
Cause He gave me... You

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Sadist


Things have changed, I’m still the same

And yet the bittersweet memories remain

And all the joy that I knew –

Was jus the morning dew…

I wanna be in everything

I wanna be all mine

I wanna be all selfishness

I wanna be unkind

I so wanna be the mistake

Be a mistake , be a misfit

I wanna hurt everyone

I wanna be a sadist

Everyone says, “Don’t be mean”

But they don mean what they mean

Everyone says, “Be nice to all”

In reality they make you fall

Don’t I have one single wish

Don’t I have my prince to kiss

Don’t I have my sweetest sin

Playing wild fantasies within?

I wanna be in everything

I wanna be all mine

I wanna be all selfishness

I wanna be unkind

I so wanna be the mistake

Be a mistake , be a misfit

I wanna hurt everyone

I wanna be a sadist

And I don’t know what everyone means now

Meanings change everytime, somehow

A Life full of meaningless whims

Is my long life of sin

Shouldn I have my right to care

Shouldn my love go everywhere

Where all of you have sweetest sins

Playing wild fantasies within?

I wanna be in everything

I wanna be all mine

I wanna be all selfishness

I wanna be unkind

I so wanna be the mistake

Be a mistake , be a misfit

I wanna hurt everyone

I wanna be a sadist

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

DeAtH'z MiStReSs


A hut in the middle of thousand skies
Mirrored in the depth of my sorrow it lies
Left to sleep inside that hut alone
My soul stayed without its home
The thunder we prayed so hard to leave
Our skylight of beauty we had to retrieve-
A hope once lost, the joy not found,
And simply I did wander around-
As an empty shell, no heart, no mind
Would ever exist with no soul to find
So profound was my sorrow’s call
But my voice itself it did stall
My existence lost never to be found again
One moment joy and the next – pain
Divinity now regarded insane
I was playing death’s cruel game.



He laughed his monstrous laugh
But no fear could control me more
I was nothing but would be his
And I would do his one wish-
He gave me two choices, But one displeased me the most-
I could choose to be a hungry ghost
Move from world to world, skies to seas,
An existence that I could never leave
The other was to do the death’s wish
To be his mistress, to be his,
But not as the mistress the poor humans think
A mistress so different from death alone,
Why should you choose me so, I moan
Why can’t you give my soul a home?

He looked at me; to him I was a naked prey
He, the fiercest wolf among wolves led astray-
I do not know why you should be so
Such is your destiny, you do not know.
I listen to my inner voice I could find
As my body had been left behind.
I took my last look at my fate
I nodded, I felt him seal my fate,
But I was safe from his cruel clutches alone
And to skyward did we both bound.
A tiny regret I did leave behind
For other poor, unfortunate souls to find.

Sunday, July 8, 2007

Realities Of A Beauitful World





Incredible fears, they ally themselves to me
In this frightening truth of reality
Unburden my mind, unleash the truth
Unaware of all this pain
A shock that strengthens all my dreams
I'll build my bridge on your stream
Sadness echoes, but it shall part
I no longer feel d evil in ur heart
I see nothing, I feel nothing,
I dream of this wondrous world
The joy hanging in the air
The endless laughter everwhere
The beads of love hangin on a string
The smile nd everlasting happiness it brings
Wil this dream evr come true?
Do I know what should I do?


I stand in front of death’s door
I wont knock, I wont go in
I wil come back to make my dream true
(no jus for me, its for u too)
Awakening up from a silent reverie....
Incarcerators, beware of what they seek
They pray for evil n ur soul to keep
Keep the truth alive-
In the heart of pain
Don’t give up, you can breathe again
The test is passed, the fights are won
Stay one. Be one.We are one.

Embrace the truth, it is ur key
2 the prison doors that hold ur destiny
Embrace d language that you speak
It controls ur communal identity
This shall be my world ive built
No sadness shall ever be born again
Joy shall flourish in every part
Of my world. It is in my heart
Ill strengthen it from al the love
That blossoms from in and outside my world
Ive done my best, yeah its true!
The rest is upto "U”

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Betrayal


Hidden meanings lie in these words
Words of love, words of joy
The sadness that echoes the words unheard
Behind that unfaithful smile, so coy
What we give, we do not get
But do we get “hurt” in return?
Unconvincing truth to forget
And d lies we seek to collect and burn.
Unnamed ecstasy forbidden to d heart
The old sweet “heart”, u were a part
Of mine, gave me a smile, so divine
From al those thoughts I sought to resign –
In short, I gave my heart to you
Did u see d love, did u see the truth?
Did u explore every corner and nook?
Did u see when u walked on it, it shook?
The signs were too blind for us
I guess it would never be the same –
The same old laughter
That we shared
But in the future
We lie unprepared.
I sing the same forlorn song
A song of sorrows singing of pain
Will my life be the same again?
Or will it be in the cold rain?
Would u comprehend the love?
In the manner which u rejoice
U cared not for me @ al
U cared more for me to fall.
I was so blind to see
I hungered for that smile
I’m still painfully fragile
I’m still hanging on the string
Severed by inches, I will fall
Life has no meaning for me @ all.
Should I give up? Should I give in?
My innocent life for u to kill?
Although I’ve committed many sins –
I’ve endured all hate
I’ve endured all pain
My will says I can LIVE again.


Sunday, April 15, 2007

The suicide....


There she sits so helpless
Just waiting for that special day
The day she set aside
When she'll take her life away
Up until that day
She'll screw her life up more
Taking all the drugs
And cutting like before


Stories of her messed up life
Are written on her skin
Keeping count of all the times
The knife just tends to win
Scarlet scars upon her wrists
Tell of all the times
She tried to go but something
Stopped her suicidal crimes


Her blood shot eyes tell of all
The countless times she's cried
She has no more tears to cry
So her end she will decide
As that day comes around
When her 'precious' life she'll take
She'll bring up all the pain inside
And one more cut she'll make


Never will she stop to think
Of all the people she will miss
You can call it 'ignorance'
But ignorance is bliss
As she starts to think about
The story of her life
She wants to end if faster
Just to end all her strife


She curls up in the corner
And she begins to cry
All the while voices whisper
Just fucking go and die
Mascara tears leak from her eyes
And stain her pale, white face
Trailing down her satin cheeks
Depression's line they trace


She sinks her nails down in her arm
As she begins to shake
Substituting physical pain
For the pain from her heart ache
As she slowly falls apart
She starts to crave her blade
She takes it out and wastes no time
To add to the cuts she's made


She drags the blade along her skin
As she watches the blood pour out
She feels control run through her body
And the voices cease to shout
She puts away her razor blade
With no sign of regret
She knows that she will do it again
For the pain she can't forget


As she starts to breathe again
And her shaking finally stops
Her weak and fragile body goes
To her bed and drops
Her eyes begin to slowly close
As she thinks about that day
Where all her struggles end as soon
As she takes her life away.....